What to do and more ramblings

So now that I have changed the background of my blog the stupid thing lost all of my links and it won't let me get them back. Stupid thing. I even tried reloading and it still didn't work, I went back to the boring template and still didn't work. Someone fix it.

Last night we had a family council meeting and holy cow. I guess it is good to know that my brothers have the ladies' back.

I have so much music it is crazy. I got two boxes from people. I have been through it all and now I am trying to catalogue it so instead of having to go through the whole thing I can just look in the book to see if I have it or not and what parts it is. It took forever to write down all the names of the songs so now all I have to do is put them in the computer.

Instead of going to choir tomorrow night my mom and I are going to an Eagles Hockey game. Anyone jealous? I am so glad that I have tomorrow off because I get to sleep in. The last couple of nights I have been dreaming about Panama City. Why you ask? I have no freaking clue. Everytime I almost have it figured out my blasted alarm goes off and I have to get up. It is beginning to tick me off. A few weeks ago I had a dream where a name kept being said over and over. I finally got up and wrote it down and will have to look into it later. I am not sure if it is a name of a person or a place. I guess I will have to see.

We are getting out hot water heater replaced tomorrow so I have to make sure that I have all of my laundry done by the time he gets here in the morning. Have I ever mentioned how much I hate doing laundry. It takes too long and I will not ever go to a laundry mat ever again to get it all done at once.

Still at the sucky job hopefully with corporate there they will get their head out of where it has been for the past few months and things will get better. Hopefully I won't be there much longer.

Whoo Hoo

I have a cool background. Thanks Becca. So today my mom told me I had to quit my job before state comes in a shuts it down. She doesn't care where I get a job. Just get out of where I am. I am seriously thinking about giving notice on Monday.

Ramblings

Ramble #1
My blog layout is so boring. I need to pep it up a bit. Need some help. Something fun, something me.

Ramble #2
I am excited that Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince is coming out in November. You tube is already putting up behind the scene things and interviews and such.

Ramble #3
I lost 3 pounds. whooo hooo!!!

Ramble #4
This lady in my moms ward gave me some music and some pieces are copyrighted in 1910. They are really old. I am almost afraid to play them. Oh yeah I can play them I am so freaking excited about that.

Ramble #5
I am reauditioning for Chorale. Tired of pretending to be what I am not. (although I have been singing what I want.)

Going crazy

Oh the joys of going to work only to find out yet again you and one other aid showed up. What is with people? I know this job stinks but really. I am so worn out that I go to bed, no more like fall, into bed around 7:30 or 8pm. I work the regular eight hours but it feels like so much more. It is really sad when you have to hide out in the bathroom just to get either quiet time or just a break. Those outside the door probably think I have a gastrointestinal problem but I am not the only one to take refuge in the bathroom. The walls are pretty thick so when the resident who is constantly yelling you just shut the door and aww quiet. The yeller today kept asking where he should go. After about ten minutes of yelling I was ready to tell him exactly where he could go. Since we can't use tape of any kind I had to think of some other way to make him quiet. I had asked him to stop yelling and he asked me who I thought I was. Being the smarty-pants that I am I told him I was the President. Boy did that shut him up. Yes, I found a way. Another thing about the job is that I learn alot of new vocabulary and word usage not just daily but sometimes by the minute. I have never had a job where someone told me where to go, what to do, or where to stick it or blow it within a ten minute period. Such fun. One resident likes to tell me that I don't like her much and when I tell her that is a stupid comment she then asks me if I think she is stupid. Argh!!! I need a new job.

With my dad's re-marriage coming up my mom has had to write a letter stating that she is ok with a sealing cancellation so he can get married in the temple. I had poured over my journals to help her with this. She sent me a copy of this letter to get my input since this decision involves me. Boy, I never wanted to think of myself as a child with an abusive parent but after reading the letter and remembering I am in fact a child with an abusive parent. I am not a child obviously, but when most of this was going on it was my growing up years. I can't not say enough how glad that I was raised by my mother who does love unconditionally unlike my father who only loved us when we did what he wanted. I know I have to forgive him but there are somethings that are going to take more time. I just have to hope that he changes for this next marriage to work.

There are no words

For the past week we have been working short at work. The facility has enough residents and enough quantity care for them to allow 4 CNA's to work each shift. We have residents that require just a little more care then most so we need the extra person. Well every freaking day some bonehead would either call in sick or just not show up. Do they discipline these people? Nope they just carry on. Do they find someone else to come in and work? Nope. I am tired of a job where I get screwed out of breaks and lunches. At least I get paid for them because I am not taking them but still everyone needs a break from the insanity. Then yesterday was the day that broke the camels back. One person called in and two didn't even bother to show up or call in saying they wouldn't be there. So how many CNA's does that leave on the west wing? Two. Over 40 some patients. That is over 20 per CNA. Way too many for the state requirement. ( 8-10 residents per CNA) Which doesn't happen anyway. On the days that we do have 4 CNA's I have anywhere between 12-16. I was half tempted to call state and report it. It is not only resident abuse it is staff abuse and either one they have zero tolerance. I was so ticked off yesterday I didn't even bother to take my blood pressure because I knew that it would be off the charts. I told my mom that in a text message and her reply was so funny. "OMG that is wack. Do what you gotta do." The fact that she would send that kind of reply was funny but the fact that she spelled whack wrong was even funnier.

Then last night one of the guys that my mom and I carpool with to Chorale came over to fix the computer. My mom was taking some kind of test and the computer froze so she called the help desk and go a hold of an idiot. He had her do something and the whole computer went down. We couldn't open anything. So Jason came over and fixed it and told us what we needed to do. So it is back up and running again obviously. He had to bring his three girls because his wife works nights. I took the two older girls over to the park for awhile but as soon as people started bringing their dogs they wanted to go back. They were afraid of them. The youngest was 9 months old so she stayed with her dad. When we got back they watched The Little Mermaid. I didn't get to bed until after 1am because I couldn't put my book down. It was good. It had been awhile since I read one book in a day. I used to to it quite often but now I don't just sit and do nothing for my job.

Yesterday two other co-workers and I decided to do a fat-camp. The prize is whoever loses the most weight in one month gets to pick the movie that the other two will take the winner to. Two of us weigh the same. With all the running around I have to do at work everyday it shouldn't be too hard. I mean I lost 3 pounds since the last time I weighed myself. It was probably about a week ago so that is good. If I got back to the what I was in high school I would be happy.

I decided to hold off on getting a new car. All three of my brothers told me that it isn't a good time to buy a car. Since they pretty much know what they are talking about I went with it. Now I just need something else to do today.

annoyance then cute

Yesterday worked sucked. We worked short, had residents that were loud and obnoxious, and co-workers who were slacking off. Now I am all for teamwork but I will not be taken advantage of anymore. I will do my work and then help if needed.

Then last night we went to dinner with my brother and niece because my sister-in-law had to go to the Eagles game. She is sometimes the mascot and sometimes she follows the other one around. They take turns. Anyway, Zoey was trying to get out of her high chair and would say, "uppies" this is a mixture of up and please. When B.J. told her no she would look and anyone and say "pees" each one a little quieter. It was just too darn cute.

One not so scary thing, one dumb thing, and two kinda decisions

Yesterday was my day off. It started out ok and then I opened my bank site to see how much my check was and I was shocked. It was $328 shorter then the previous one and I only took one extra day off. Boy if you think about it that one day I could have made that $328. Something is wrong. It could be that they didn't add in the day I was suspended back into this check. Or someone did something wrong. This limited the fun I was going to have.

Last night at Chorale we were running through music that we are singing for the 25th Anniversary of the Colorado Mormon Chorale and there is one song that has a solo. I decided to go for it. I don't want to jinx it so I will have to let you know on that end.

Then when I was settling myself in bed last night I poked my eye like you would not believe. When I put my contact in this morning it felt like it was on fire. Did I forget to mention that it feels like it is being held in place by one little string of eye connector stuff? Yup. I thought I was going to have a black eye or at least swollen.

I have decided that on my day off next Wednesday I am going to go and look for a new/used vehicle. What am a looking for in this new/used vehicle you ask? Well I will tell you. A/C, CD player, and either 4Wheel drive or All Wheel Drive. The payments have to be around what I am paying now for my car. I am not picky about the color but I will refuse a booger colored vehicle. Green isn't my color. Oh and I have to look good driving it. I drove my brothers big red truck last week and I looked GOOD! I am just saying.

I have also decided that I might apply for something that will require a lot of change. I have to make a video about me and why I want to do this and why I think I deserve to participate. I am not going to tell you what it is because I haven't totally decided but it is close. I might tell some of you but not all. Sorry about that.


I will keep you informed of what I do.

Totally flumoxed

So I was given a budget to get music for the ward choir and at first I thought how cool is this? Now I am so frustrated it is drving me mad. One website won't let you order online you have to call in your order, one music shop closed down and now you have to go to Fort Collins if you want regualr music. What did I do? I contacted people who order music almost all the time to see where they get theirs. Oh did I mention that one website drove me nuts. It kept taking me to someplace I didn't want. It would say that I spelled the Composers name wrong. Um no I didn't because I had a piece of their music in my hand and it came from your publishing house. So if there is a spelling error it is on them. So After getting responses back I went to work. Now I just have to find some songs that are easy enough but are good. Any suggestions would be very very very helpful.

Cutest little shopper

So on Saturday my mom and I watched Zoey. Since it was still early we decided to go out to Centerra. I needed new shoes for work and we needed to return some shoes that we got Zoey for Easter that didn't fit right. After leaving Famous Footwear we walked down to Childrens Palace. Zoey walked the whole way. While in the store she was looking on the racks that were on her level. It was just too cute.