Holy Moly

Crazy is the theme of my life at the moment. I started out spring looking for a job. All because I stood my ground. I am tired of people thinking that they can walk all over me. I am not like some women who let people walk all over them and make them do what they want them to do. I have a voice and I am using it. I changed my phone number because I finally had had enough harrassing phone calls from my father. I realized that I can control it. First step was changing my number. When and if I am ready to talk to him again I will but until then I am doing this for my sanity. I don't know why things were done. I can't read minds. For one thing I shouldn't be involved in the goings on of the divorce. I am the daughter and I will not be forced to choose sides. I am tired of the emotional and verbal abuse I recieved. I have felt so much relief since i took that first step into gaining control.

This past month, along with my mom we decided to audition for 7 Brides for 7 Brothers that is being done at the local dinner theater. We both got in. I am Mrs. Bixby and my mom is Mrs. Perkins. So far I have five or six lines. Not just little lines but full sentences. I am gonna try not to throw up. All the other plays I have done I have been in the chorus. In the Music Man I had was one little three word phrase. Not this time. No siree. So now we have rehearsals once a week until the middle of July and then after that two or three times a week and then the performances are Friday, Saturday evenings and Sunday afternoons. They have doubles for most of the cast so we won't have to be at every performance.

This last week my mom and I went to the Jonas Brothers concert at the Pepsi Center. It was so much freaking fun. Their stage was in the round and it was massive. It turned. The center where they came up could be turned into a trampoline for tricks and the water wall that they had was unbelievable. It rained hearts and words and other designs. Truly awesome. I don't really care if people think I am too old to like their music. I am beyond caring what others thinks about things that I choose to like. Music is such a huge part of my life. If it moves me and I enjoy it than that is all that matters. They put on a great show. Their opening acts were Honor Society and they are different but I like them. Also Jordin Sparks was there. She is just awesome. Her single Battlefield rocks. I won tickets from Verizon after I had already bought my own. I tried every one I knew to give them away. They either couldn't go or they were not fans. So I took them with me with the intent of finding someone to give them to. I was going to find someone who was on the upper level to bring them down to the first level. No such luck. Sad to say that two good seats went to waste. I bought the tour book, two lanyards and a necklace. I gave one of the lanyards to my mom. She had just as much fun as I did. She went with me last year for the Burnin Up tour. We are going to make it a yearly event as long as they keep coming back to Denver.

Since it is summer the Colorado Mormon Chorale is taking a break. We go back at the end of August. We are doing one performance at the end of July but that is with songs that we know like the back of our hands. One of the songs I get to play my flute. I used to get nervous playing in front of people but now I don't. I stay focused and let it all go. I do that with singing to. Now speaking in front of people that makes me shake. No idea why. We get to sing the National Anthem at one of the Colorado Rockies games in September. We get to be in center field. We get told every year that we are not allowed to walk on the chalked lines. We have to step over them. They get upset if you do. Can't mess of the foul-line now can you?

This coming Monday my mom and I are going to Red Rocks Amphetheater to hear the Mormon Tabernacle Choir perform. The last time we saw them was at the Pepsi Center. It was I think 3 or 4 years ago. It is just fun to hear them. Listening to music is just so much more fulfilling when you listen to it live.

Little Zoey is 2 1/2 now and boy is she a handful of energy. She loves getting her fingernails and toenails painted so when she is getting cranky she follows Aunt April and we go paint them. she secretly loves the cotton balls I put between her toes. She had even mastered walking on her heels. She is such a performer. I have a little microphone that I got in a happy meal once and she brings in a step-stool from the kitchen and stands on it and starts singing. Her favorite song to perform is the itsy bitsy spider but someone has to do the actions. She loves Five monkeys jumping on the bed but hasn't quite grasped the concept of counting down as one monkey falls off. In her mind the one that fell off just gets back on. Such a performer.