When will it get better

For the last little while I have been down in the dumps. I guess it started when I was knocked down to sing second soprano. Let me just say that I hate it with a passion. When asked for some reasons a lady from my own section sent me an e-mail saying that I was a DIVA, PRIDEFUL, using the Chorale as a stepping stone to my solo career. If I wanted a solo career I would have tried it. I am in the chorale simply because I enjoy singing and the feeling I get while doing so is awesome. She would tell me that if I wasn't careful Heavenly Father would teach me lessons I don't want to learn. I am by no means prideful of my talent. When I recieved that e-mail my first thought was to write back and yell at her with hurtful words. The written word can have a powerful effect but as I thought about it I decided to rebuff everything she said. I went paragraph by paragraph and gave her my thoughts on what she said. No where in the response was me saying "That is the pot calling the kettle black." or how ever that saying goes. I decided to be the bigger person. I didn't even mention this e-mail to the conductor of the chorale. My mom sent him an e-mail to respond to one he sent her about me. She gave him bits and peices of what she had said. She has since been trying to rub in my face that she is a first soprano and I am not. There are times when I would just love to knock that smirk right off her face but that would do no good. Violence is not the answer.

At work I am getting tired of management getting in my cherrios about stupid things. I have been looking for a different job that will hopefully be better. My personal life sucks. Dating is non-exsistant. I am really tired of being single. I am tired of all my married friends and those friends who are dating telling me to just be patient. That is no the kind of help I need. They tell me to join LDS Mingle, or LDS Planet or a few other dating websites. NOT HELPING!!!!!! Sometimes I think how much easier it would be if I wasn't LDS but then I remember that I would be lost without it.